Why.

Is it healthy to put yourself in a relationship that you know you're riding passenger in? How do you get into the driver's seat, or at least compromise so you both can pull over occassionally and let the other drive? Obviously the latter is best, but what happens when you know you're not getting anywhere and still allowing yourself to be taken for a ride? At some point, you break, and at some point you draw the line. Or, very slowly, you eventually grow out of it.

I would prefer just stopping it altogether, but deep down I know it's not going to happen. I've tried to wean myself off of this plenty of times and it still hasn't happened. The only way I feel I can move on is if I know for sure that this won't amount to anything. I want an answer, either way, and if the answer is no then I'll be relieved. I'm tired of stumbling over the same thing again and again, and I just want something new to come along.

Ooooooo

Christmas Gift List -

1. Ryan- Some video game. Or cars. My brother is the easiest kid to shop for.
2. Hootaf- I'll find some random book at Border's cos we got a coupon for 20% off at work. Nice.
3. Lauren- I have no clue. Something cute, but something that has to be under $10.
4. Mom & Stepdad- I guess we're chipping in $30 for those Kings tickets.
5. Dad- I have no clue.

Tomorrow I have to buy my outfit for Saturday's dinner, and get Lauren's present. I'll have Leslie go with me after work.

Oy. Christmas is stressful. Stressful but fun. I got all next weekend off and though I'm working on Christmas Day, I at least got the shift I wanted- 3-7pm. It's only 4 hours, and I'll be off early enough to go to the Oliphants' like I wanted to.

You got me burning up

It’s a fire I can’t put out
Something I just cannot extinguish
But if it were ever to fade out
It would fill me with such anguish
But you know you got me burning up, know you got me on fire
And the one thing that still keeps me up is you, for you there’s a desire
What am I supposed to do tell me pretty baby
You’re pulling me left and right
And I’m on the verge of going simply crazy
But there’s no one in this world quite like you
It’s strange how I came to this point with you
Call me if you're lonely, and baby you shall see
I'm the one who keeps you where you need to be
And you know you got me burning up, know you got me on fire
And the one thing that still keeps me up is you, for you there’s a desire
Late at night I pretend you're lying with me
Touching me in ways I've never felt before
There's no one else I want to feel inside me
It's the only feeling that I need for sure
You got me burning up
Yea you got me burning up
You got me burning up...